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Evolving

I used to think that being Christian was synonymous with being Conservative.

I used to wonder how people who weren’t teetotalers could call themselves Christian.

I used to think it was sinful to watch too much TV on the weekends if I hadn’t read my Bible.

I was raised very conservatively–socially and politically–and I used to think a lot of things.

I’ve changed. I used to think that I had to protect myself from changing. I would squeeze my eyes shut as hard as I could to ignore the things that contradicted my beliefs. But let me tell you something. This is a truth.
One of the most courageous things you’ll ever do is change your mind.

It’s brave to open your eyes and take it all in–the gigantic, overwhelming, disorganized world. At first, it’s disorienting. You may feel sick for a bit. It takes time for your eyes to adjust. But eventually, you gain your bearings. You may end up landing in a place you first thought was very scary. But if you can do it–if you can open your eyes and land–it’s not scary at all. It’s bright and beautiful and peaceful. Squeezing your eyes shut like a child in the night, ignoring the discomfort in your soul, filling your mind with white noise instead of stopping to think–THAT is what’s scary.

I’ve landed and I’m in a place that I could not have even imagined just a short time ago. Part of that landing was change…not so much my personality or my preferences. I’d like to think I’m still the optimistic and energetic person I’ve always been. I definitely still love stories, chocolate, and a good long conversation. But I’ve changed my mind, my beliefs, my interactions with the world. And I plan to continue changing as long as I’m on this Earth. It becomes more comfortable the more you do it. Being comfortable with change doesn’t mean you’re wishy-washy. It means you think about the world and let go of the things that don’t work or fit or make sense. It means you’re letting yourself improve. And that is my goal: that my life would be a long term evolution into the best version of myself.

So I invite you, friend, to be courageous with me. Let’s evolve together.
It’s not always the easiest or most glamorous thing to do. But it is always the better thing.

-R

6 Comments

  1. Bravo. I admire your courage and applaud your willingness to grow and change. Have you read Faith Shift by Kathy Escobar?

    • Rebecca Emlund Rebecca Emlund

      I am actually reading it right now. I’m about half way through and it is amazing. Love it. I want to visit that church. Most impactful quote so far… “Remember, my friends, your souls are not in mortal danger.”

  2. Tony B Tony B

    Good work my friend! Can’t wait to watch where you go.

  3. I love this. I could add that I thought it was sinful to have an open mind (the gate is narrow, and all that). Now, I think it’s critical. It has helped me feel less unsettled to remember that I am not saying truth changes, only that our understanding of truth is bound to be a little flawed. I think we have to keep an open our mind in order to see the flaws.

    • Rebecca Emlund Rebecca Emlund

      Absolutely. That’s a great way to put it. The fear that even considering different points of view is a dangerous activity – that’s so so difficult to overcome but so essential and so worth it.

  4. Absolutely! Change is tough to deal with: uncomfortable, but required for growth!.

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